This is my ultimate declaration and also my biggest cry for people to pray for me…
So if you feel like praying for someone, and God lays it on your heart, PLEASE PRAY FOR ME…
The last few days was very tough for me, and I wish I didn’t have to say this…
I AM WEAK… I struggle daily and I do not know how to cope many days….
At this point I wish I never existed, yet everyone tries to encourage me…
I am at this point in the most vulnerable place I have ever been, and by doing this post, I am opening this up for the world to see…
So I am human… YES, I am… It might seem that sometimes I have everything figured out…
I DON’T
In the last few months I realized who GOD is… And it became easy to listen to Him… My weakness though is that I do take personally what people say and it always hurt… “Strong men and Warriors don’t listen to comments from others, their words shouldn’t hurt you”, but I am human and I do feel, and it does hurt… Cutting out emotions doesn’t solve life, it destroys life….
So how can a person like me get up, even if I believe that I am not worth it?
How can I survive when my life falls apart?
I can’t really answer that… I know who God is… I met HIM, yet I sometimes doubt in Him…
How can I say this… Well I am just BERNARD KRUGER, 25 year old, App developer…. I do not know everything and I do not know how to keep on focusing on God, even when my life falls apart… As I sit here, I have tears in my eyes… Because I do not know how to proceed…
“I admit I am WEAK, but I have a STRONG GOD”
Up to today I didn’t know if I got over fear, I now know I am still in fear….
Why do I call on all mighty warriors to stand?
Intercessors are the ones who stand between the flaming arrows, And the people…. See my post “Intercessors Unite“
I am at this point an intercessor, yet wounded at the moment.
I have seen the flaming arrows in actions… It hurts, and those who hurt most are closest to me…
So I plead of the intercessors out there, PLEASE PRAY THAT GOD CAN GIVE ME STRENGTH TO STAND AS WELL… I need to get up again, I need to get back where I belong… Back to protecting those I care for most…
We are all like Clark Kent…
A normal person, WITH A SUPERNATURAL PERSON HIDDEN FROM THE WORLD…
Lets free the real person inside….
I beg of you, IF GOD PERMITS, please pray for me…
God bless.